Londonista

... but I do know who I want at the end. But I'm too stupid and selfish to realize that what you could have right now might not be yours at the end. But the point is, I want to experience that present moment fully but I can't fill the gap since you are not here. So I'm letting you go for a while and hope that someday we'll be together again.

You can't have your cake and eat it too.